Ships

Relationships, friendships; friendships in relationships! Well thats what makes it a "ship" right? You cant really have one without the other. You need a relationship of some sort, with someone ;in order to build it and make it a friendship.


Friendships in relationships are asenchal in my eyes. Well how couldnt they be?! Can u really call something a relationship if u cant stand to be with eachother? You need a sorce of convosashion and mutul intrests of some sort. When you finerly have that conection with someone you find to pick up and really like the little things that they do. For example, things they may do or say.
Im in a relationship at the monent and ive found that its the "imprevisations" as he calls them that i so offten want to record and cherrish. He can never rember what he says or does in the proses of doing one, and they might be so-so-so grusioum or childish but they bring me to my kneese every time. The things that he says as well. For example he never says "yes", its ever "aye" due to his scottish habbits or "by all meen's" if hes jocking or keen. And when he says thows words (and i think we all know what im on about when i say that (for god sake there used in most songs, books and films)) if he's saying them back to you, he wont say "to" but "as well". I know its the smallest difference; but it meens the world to me. Its the littlest things like reeding or just listening to eachother ever rant on, or improvise; they meen the world.
You find you grow and develop the harshest of stabbing paines when you get to that point in a relationship. At the age my feller and I are currontly at, you start to hate going to bed. Purly and simplely becaust they are not there. You try to get comfy and then end up forgeting that their not there and go to cuddle in to them, rember and sometimes cry yourself to sleep thinking about them.
The next morning you feel slightly refreshed and ever lie there, just thinking about them. Go to cuddle in to them again... And rember. Or rember instently because your that sprauled out over the bed that there is non other then you own empty precence there.

Tick (time) Tock (travle) Tick

have you ever wundered what it would be like to time ttravle back and thorth thrue your own life. To come and go as you please. To have as menny paralel worlds as you want.
I'v wanted to go back in time myself. Just daydreaming about what I'd do, what id change; how dairing I'd be. And if I would ever bump in to some bullies, thinking to my self "I'd show them". And then to whiz strate in to the fuchour and see who my fuchour husbend would be.
or stay way back in nercery rippetting your howl life/ going back thrue school to make shore you have the best education possable, and reashoring you that you wont end up working on the cheackouts when your older.

clouds

Ever looked up at the sky and gaysed at the clouds and seen a birds eye viewof little islands. seen the sea rushing to the shore and at least two hills with the tinyest trees. And all this, in one snap shot of a cloud.


Some times you'd be reminded of "Never Never Land" and Peter Pan. But then again, unforchantly; everyone has to grow up sooner or later. As a reault, one day you could be driving in your car, glance up at the sky and think to yourself "that looks like a fox" or something like that.
I say an animal, because in my opinion, as you get older you tend to see less. In the way of just being able to look up at the sky and look at the wunderious landscapes in the sky

Connechions

Have you ever had that perfect kiss? But not from just the one person, but two? Not at the same time ofcorce; if you manage that then 'brovo' you are truly skilled!
You can just picture it cant you. Just to have that person, boy or girl (preferbly your 'partner') holding you close as if they could never bear to louse you, or let go.
Then when they kiss you, weather its a "french kiss" or just a peck. They are holding you round your waist with ome hand and you neck with the other.
In my opinion the song by lady gaga "poker face" has got quite a good piont, this being "if its love, if its not rough its not fun"; but of corce only to a serton exstente.
it's also sweet when the boy's is that loving, soft and tender kind. They hold you round the waist with both arlms. I find it so irrertating when the grip around your waist isnt verry strong at all, in all honnestly, i hate that. i never feel safe or suchoure. its almost as if they are worryed about hurting you; in a way its another way of boasting about there strenth. its as if there saying "im sorry i dont know my own strenth, im afrade of hurting you... im sorry am i crushing you?" when there bearly even tuching you. another thing i find irrertating about this, is when your hugging them. you never know when to pull away, you dont want to do so too soon; for fear of hurting there feelings.
I did have a boyfriend who apered to try and do both. it didnt work.
im not quite shore why, it could of just been him. he was verry forceful at the time, and had a vulger scence of humer, so i sopose that might of also been a downfall. (just to state the obious)

make up your mind!

If you dont like my imprevisation then hand me a script, ill learn it and say exactly what you want me to say. Give me a skech, colour coad it ill paint what you want me to paint. Give me a problem along with the instruchions to the solushion i will do my best to carry them out.

Eddible Substance

Iv never liked potato, I don't know why. I cant really taste anything in general so I have to go by the texture of everything. As a result of this, I can only eat; you could say "well cooked chips" or "seriously burnt chips". how ever there cooked, they are never going to pass my lips with out a terribly unhealthy amount of salt; along with a hint/reasonable amount of vinegar.
But the only question I have is.... How can you stand BOTH the taste or texture of those discussing vegetables and the thinner versions of them?!?

Are we alike?

Its that time of year. Colage. Iv aplied for two and heard of the deatails of another passed the aplication deadline. Im DESPROT to do A levels but due to my english skills along with miailed dislecsieya its a struggle to get D's let alone C's.
My other friends have already been prity much garrenteied a plac doing A levels with amazing subjects that i would pritty much do anything in order to do.
In achaul fact one of my friends have been offered a place doing A levels in subjects that i dont think id ever be able to aceave the grades needed to do so...
Well its almost certon with this spelling and punchuation.
Im not entiyerly shore waether i should take my chances aplying for that 3rd colage, one part of me is saying, "hay, whats the worst that can happen?!", "the longer you wate the less chance there is that your aplication is even going to get a looking" and the other part is saying that "THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL YOU ARE EVER GOING TO GET IN TO SUCH AN AMAZING COLLAGE!... so why even bother trying?"


I supose its a good thing not to set the bar to high, you cant get disserpointed this way! In the end i attended two interveuses and am now trying to deside wich collage to attend. Both give me the perfect chance of going to unieversaity.