Ships

Relationships, friendships; friendships in relationships! Well thats what makes it a "ship" right? You cant really have one without the other. You need a relationship of some sort, with someone ;in order to build it and make it a friendship.


Friendships in relationships are asenchal in my eyes. Well how couldnt they be?! Can u really call something a relationship if u cant stand to be with eachother? You need a sorce of convosashion and mutul intrests of some sort. When you finerly have that conection with someone you find to pick up and really like the little things that they do. For example, things they may do or say.
Im in a relationship at the monent and ive found that its the "imprevisations" as he calls them that i so offten want to record and cherrish. He can never rember what he says or does in the proses of doing one, and they might be so-so-so grusioum or childish but they bring me to my kneese every time. The things that he says as well. For example he never says "yes", its ever "aye" due to his scottish habbits or "by all meen's" if hes jocking or keen. And when he says thows words (and i think we all know what im on about when i say that (for god sake there used in most songs, books and films)) if he's saying them back to you, he wont say "to" but "as well". I know its the smallest difference; but it meens the world to me. Its the littlest things like reeding or just listening to eachother ever rant on, or improvise; they meen the world.
You find you grow and develop the harshest of stabbing paines when you get to that point in a relationship. At the age my feller and I are currontly at, you start to hate going to bed. Purly and simplely becaust they are not there. You try to get comfy and then end up forgeting that their not there and go to cuddle in to them, rember and sometimes cry yourself to sleep thinking about them.
The next morning you feel slightly refreshed and ever lie there, just thinking about them. Go to cuddle in to them again... And rember. Or rember instently because your that sprauled out over the bed that there is non other then you own empty precence there.